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I didn't forget about this stuff by any means. Just to much has happened and I didn't really have time inbetween moving, eating, having H1N1, sleeping, taking care of kids, cooking, cleaning, school work, running errands, having some fun like a normal 17yr old, hanging with my sisters, shopping, watching tv, showering, doing laundry and whatever else somebody needed me to do. I wouldn't change it for a thing but it was still crazy.

We finally got our own apartment here in Omaha. (Pictures to come.) It's 1 bedroom/1 bath but it's enough room for my mom and I. We don't need a 4bedroom/2bath house like we did before we moved for just two people. It's pointless. We are in the unpacking process right now. Kinda stressful but I guess I'm used to this. I'm used to having something to stress about, either little or big. Yes little stuff stresses me out. It's not really stressing me out, I just worry a lot. Sorta like the quiet kid in the back of the room that takes everything in and then thinks about it all later. Yeah that would be me. I take everything in and process it later.

I just lost some people I shouldn't have gotten close to in the first place but I'm not going to regret giving them a second chance. I needed to because I do have trust issues with these people, I needed to let it go(something I usually don't do), and say I could let things go. I got hurt, more like disappointed and upset, and I walked away. I said what I wanted to say(after I was put down by a 40yr old!) and let it be. I didn't feel the need to make more drama. I was tired of them telling me to be more honest with them(Sometimes I don't tell people what's bothering me that they're doing) but they had the nerve to go to my mom and say I needed to grow up and if I had a problem with something I needed to bring it to them. Practice what you preach, especially when you're 40yrs old.

My sisters are both going back to college and I'm really proud of them. They are doing better for themselves. My oldest sister is pregnant, due May 11, with my niece. She's had her name picked out since she was pregnant with my nephew(ya know, incase he was a girl) because my oldest niece picked out the name. Isabella Marie. Yes popular but cute. I can't wait for my Bellabug to get here.

I got some news today....well yesterday....that made me decide what to do about school. I'm deciding to hold off a bit and push back graduation till February 2011 instead of this September. I'm disappointed I can't graduate in September(or around there if I push myself) because I know I'm capable of that. I've gotten halfway through with my HS program in 3 months.

So that's just a recap of everything that's happened. Oh I went to my first WWE Houseshow January 9th!!! (: That'll have to go in another post because I'm so tired right now.

Lately

I have.........
- registered for my junior year.
- started liking a boy, a lot!
- went to Omaha.
- had my first bad babysitting experience with three kids. (We really won't go there. Let's just say I'm going to start making people pay before rather than after.)
- had to babysit while there were tornado sirens going off while eating dinner. (Different kid.)
- thought a lot about school and what I wanna do in college. Probably PTA and photography on the side.
- deleted 200 songs off my iPod to save space on my computer.
- realized that no matter how much you think you need somebody in your life, you really don't if they treated you badly/lied/etc.
- got really close to a people I've been blocking out because of my trust issues.

I wish I could update you on what else has happened but you'd get lost in it all, don't worry. You'll know sooner or later.

Smoking ban

This isn't meant to hurt anybodys feelings or look down on the smokers, I'm just stating my opinions.

I just got back from Omaha/Council Bluffs and the people we stayed with smoke non-stop in the house with a 3 and 1yr old around. Me, being allergic to smoke, was kind of all "Okay, I keep saying I'm allergic to it and you still don't stop." My allergies were going overboard. I was getting a fever, stomachache, headache, light headed, everything I felt like back in May.
My mom's bestfriend Betty was complaining about the smoking ban saying it was taking away their freedoms and some other stuff. Me being the nice, quiet girl not wanting to start a little fight didn't say anything. My mom didn't either, she quit smoking two years ago.
I don't think the ban is taking away your freedom. If you want to ruin your lungs by smoking, be my guest, but don't do it around everybody. Second hand smoke kills people too. You don't know everybodys story and health problems. They have bars for people who want to go out and drink, they should go do the same for smokers while in public.
I will never smoke. I want to live my life to the fullest. I don't want to get held back by health problems.

I just had to get that out. I feel better. I don't care if you agree with this or not. I don't think it's taking away the smokers freedom whatsoever.

Calm after the storm

Same tornado as the next picture. We actually heard there was one on the ground and took off because we basically waited all night for something to happen, either here in town or around here.


Tornado that was east of us. I didn't take the picture but it was sent to me by my amazing-super funny-cool-friend Nick(who didn't take it either) who also works with my mom.


Funnel cloud(it was hard to capture it on camera/video) that was spinning. That was when I started getting scared/excited/nervous lol.


Once all the clouds cleared off, it was beautiful. Taken with my actual digital camera.


Taken with phone.


It doesn't look like this on my phone. Lame but it was some of the clouds forming again.


I liked this cloud and it was right above the wall cloud.


Trying to come down so bad.


Wall cloud.

Somehow when I upload them, they don't stay in order. All well. It was beautiful/scary/cool/nerve wracking all in one night.
YES I did say COOL! Nature is amazing and I'm glad I live in a state where I get to see it snow, rain, thunderstorm, tornado, be hot one day and cool down the next day. I love every season. I wouldn't ever move anywhere where it DOESN'T snow. Snow is beautiful. :) Ahh don't bring on winter just yet.
(I don't know why some of the pictures are good on my phone and crappy/small on here. I didn't adjust any of my settings while taking the pics. I didn't really have time to lol.)

Post-song: Much Better - Jonas Brothers.

Photos

Cards dealt

I've never been one to complain & I never will be. The hand I was dealt wasn't good so to speak but I'm making the best of it & it's amazing.
I didn't think I'd overcome the stuff I was faced with in the last year. Never would I have imagined it'd only take a year to overcome it. All the hurt, all the confusion, everything.
I'm happy. I'm stronger. I'm wiser. I'm smarter. I don't care what people think or don't think about me. They can try to mold me all they want but the true friends will take me as I am, bad flaws or not.
God is still here with me. :)
P.S. I like how people think they're better than me and other people when they believe in God too.

My knee & Spring Break 2010 (:

FYI: I have runner's knee. I've been in pain for the past year with mainly my left knee. I had surgery last July and I thought I'd be free pain. Nope. I've went back to him two times and he tells me I'm not doing the right exercises when I'm doing everything he asks me to do. I'm in aerobics and sometimes it acts up, sometimes it doesn't. I still think there's something wrong with it besides what I already have. I've been right about saying that once already(In surgery I had everything under my knee cap basically torn & extra skin tissue). I've BARELY been to aerobics in the past month because I've been sick with allergies or a sinus infection. I don't get how he can tell me I'm not doing the wrong exercises to that. But I don't really wanna do PT for two more months or whatever he thinks I need. I did that last summer and I was in more pain leaving than I was going in there.

As for Spring Break 2010, I'm pretty sure we're going on vacation. Like outside of where we normally go. (: We need this, badly. (If you know what we've been forced to go through in the past couple years, you know how close we've came to packing up and leaving a lot of times). I'm the one that's basically planning it.(I know where all the cool places are :D) I might actually go to WM26 & all the events before then. But I'll have to see what we decide.