Lately

I have.........
- registered for my junior year.
- started liking a boy, a lot!
- went to Omaha.
- had my first bad babysitting experience with three kids. (We really won't go there. Let's just say I'm going to start making people pay before rather than after.)
- had to babysit while there were tornado sirens going off while eating dinner. (Different kid.)
- thought a lot about school and what I wanna do in college. Probably PTA and photography on the side.
- deleted 200 songs off my iPod to save space on my computer.
- realized that no matter how much you think you need somebody in your life, you really don't if they treated you badly/lied/etc.
- got really close to a people I've been blocking out because of my trust issues.

I wish I could update you on what else has happened but you'd get lost in it all, don't worry. You'll know sooner or later.

Smoking ban

This isn't meant to hurt anybodys feelings or look down on the smokers, I'm just stating my opinions.

I just got back from Omaha/Council Bluffs and the people we stayed with smoke non-stop in the house with a 3 and 1yr old around. Me, being allergic to smoke, was kind of all "Okay, I keep saying I'm allergic to it and you still don't stop." My allergies were going overboard. I was getting a fever, stomachache, headache, light headed, everything I felt like back in May.
My mom's bestfriend Betty was complaining about the smoking ban saying it was taking away their freedoms and some other stuff. Me being the nice, quiet girl not wanting to start a little fight didn't say anything. My mom didn't either, she quit smoking two years ago.
I don't think the ban is taking away your freedom. If you want to ruin your lungs by smoking, be my guest, but don't do it around everybody. Second hand smoke kills people too. You don't know everybodys story and health problems. They have bars for people who want to go out and drink, they should go do the same for smokers while in public.
I will never smoke. I want to live my life to the fullest. I don't want to get held back by health problems.

I just had to get that out. I feel better. I don't care if you agree with this or not. I don't think it's taking away the smokers freedom whatsoever.

Calm after the storm

Same tornado as the next picture. We actually heard there was one on the ground and took off because we basically waited all night for something to happen, either here in town or around here.


Tornado that was east of us. I didn't take the picture but it was sent to me by my amazing-super funny-cool-friend Nick(who didn't take it either) who also works with my mom.


Funnel cloud(it was hard to capture it on camera/video) that was spinning. That was when I started getting scared/excited/nervous lol.


Once all the clouds cleared off, it was beautiful. Taken with my actual digital camera.


Taken with phone.


It doesn't look like this on my phone. Lame but it was some of the clouds forming again.


I liked this cloud and it was right above the wall cloud.


Trying to come down so bad.


Wall cloud.

Somehow when I upload them, they don't stay in order. All well. It was beautiful/scary/cool/nerve wracking all in one night.
YES I did say COOL! Nature is amazing and I'm glad I live in a state where I get to see it snow, rain, thunderstorm, tornado, be hot one day and cool down the next day. I love every season. I wouldn't ever move anywhere where it DOESN'T snow. Snow is beautiful. :) Ahh don't bring on winter just yet.
(I don't know why some of the pictures are good on my phone and crappy/small on here. I didn't adjust any of my settings while taking the pics. I didn't really have time to lol.)

Post-song: Much Better - Jonas Brothers.

Photos

Cards dealt

I've never been one to complain & I never will be. The hand I was dealt wasn't good so to speak but I'm making the best of it & it's amazing.
I didn't think I'd overcome the stuff I was faced with in the last year. Never would I have imagined it'd only take a year to overcome it. All the hurt, all the confusion, everything.
I'm happy. I'm stronger. I'm wiser. I'm smarter. I don't care what people think or don't think about me. They can try to mold me all they want but the true friends will take me as I am, bad flaws or not.
God is still here with me. :)
P.S. I like how people think they're better than me and other people when they believe in God too.

My knee & Spring Break 2010 (:

FYI: I have runner's knee. I've been in pain for the past year with mainly my left knee. I had surgery last July and I thought I'd be free pain. Nope. I've went back to him two times and he tells me I'm not doing the right exercises when I'm doing everything he asks me to do. I'm in aerobics and sometimes it acts up, sometimes it doesn't. I still think there's something wrong with it besides what I already have. I've been right about saying that once already(In surgery I had everything under my knee cap basically torn & extra skin tissue). I've BARELY been to aerobics in the past month because I've been sick with allergies or a sinus infection. I don't get how he can tell me I'm not doing the wrong exercises to that. But I don't really wanna do PT for two more months or whatever he thinks I need. I did that last summer and I was in more pain leaving than I was going in there.

As for Spring Break 2010, I'm pretty sure we're going on vacation. Like outside of where we normally go. (: We need this, badly. (If you know what we've been forced to go through in the past couple years, you know how close we've came to packing up and leaving a lot of times). I'm the one that's basically planning it.(I know where all the cool places are :D) I might actually go to WM26 & all the events before then. But I'll have to see what we decide.

Concert!

I posted this on myspace early early today. I'll add more later once I get some sleep and I'm not rushed to get off the computer to get ready for a wedding.

OMFG! :D:D:D:D:D:D:D:D:D:D:D:D:D AMAZING!

We stood in line for 3hrs & got like 2nd row spots after some people started moving around and stuff.

It was amazing!
I thought I was going to die a couple times because this OLD GUY and his hoe were like right in my fucking face and even after pushing him away and shit it would back up and I couldn't breathe whatsoever and this guy and girl(nicest people ever!) saw me about to f'n cry and probably have an asthma attack and they stepped in and told the guy off.

They protected us the whole night, I wish I could of told them thank you or something.

I was like 2 feet away from Jacoby!!!!!
I have it on video, might be up later when I get some time to upload some pics!
And the lead singer for buckcherry is to die for!
I couldnt get any videos/pics of them cus there was some slutty girls shaking their fat arms in my face.


i'm off to get ready for the wedding!

p.s. bree i'm sorry i didn't grab jacoby's package! it was like right there too. && no bruises for me! just a little sore. i almost got in 2 fights. one with the slutty girls and one with some other girl and i turned around and told her to get the fuck off me(along with those awesome people mentioned above -- he also found my sunglasses my mom lost while some fight happened) and she left. (: proves that im not shy anymore losers. xD

ohhh bree wrote a comment back to that too.
"LMFAO!!!!! ahahaha "there was some slutty girls shaking their fat arms in my face" ahahahahahahah I think I died reading that lmfao ahahahah. "bree i'm sorry i didn't grab jacoby's package!" i'm a hoe ahahahaa. i would tell you to grab someones package for me. x) x) i love you!"

OMFG!

The concert is FRIDAY! It was just yesterday that we got our tickets. I didn't think 40+ days could go by this fast. Seriously! I've never really had a big countdown like this, except for birthday's.
I still have like 50 days till I move to Omaha for the summer to stay with the most amazing sister ever! I'm not sucking up either Deanna haha. I don't know if it's the fact that my other sister's are a lot alike that I feel connected to Deanna but yeah. (She's probably my real true twin. We had like three of the same shirts when I saw her well almost 3 weeks ago and we live 2hrs away from eachother.)

I have to wake up at like 8am on saturday to get ready for the wedding. I'm going to die. Lets just put it that way. I'll be up all day long Friday. 7am - atleast Midnight or later. Saturday night I'm going to crash at like 9pm, I know it. But it's going to be so much fun and worth it. I'm going to watch my baby, well Mandy's baby but she'll be all mine for the whole day! I love that little girl. She used to hate me seriously. I'd even look at her and she would bawl(which is very rare for any baby that i'm around, even Conner my nephew didn't cry). One saturday when I went with Betty run errands and all that crap, I walked into the door and Alex smiled at me. I was all "Whoa!" And we've been buddies ever since. Same with Aiden. Oh man, I'm gonna miss them kiddos a lot.

Oh hi lilsis! (: I know you'll be reading this post in a little bit. I can't believe I've known you for three years! I love you girl, never gonna stop, never.

Jonas Brothers!

I'm going to see them in July!!!! :D

Life

is full of ups & downs, and it's darn right unpredictable.
I didn't ask for any of this. But I got it. And I'm trying to deal with it the best I can. So maybe I'm emotional. Maybe I go from sad, to frustrated, to happy again in a day. Isn't that life?

I can't believe my family is doing this to me. I have no clue how I'm still standing, able to handle everything else on my plate. My sister isn't my sister anymore. I officially hate her. She says she doesn't want us(my mom & I) in her life anymore, that she's so much better off with her boyfriend. But being better off without us is doing drugs & having your boyfriend end up in jail because of a drug bust. Yeah, I forgot that. My grandma is a hypocrite. She told my mom she doesn't want to talk to her until my mom goes out and brings my sister home and talks to her. Isn't that being a hypocrite? So cross off my plans of going to Missouri this summer.

I've been through so much crap in my life. Being stressed out about my family drama is eating me alive. I counted my calories today, hey what else can I do in sports medicine when Miranda was taping my ankle? - and I've only had 250 out of the recommended 2400. Yeah, nuts. I don't eat breakfast in the first place but I tried today and felt sick. I had a kudo's and 160z bottle of chocolate milk. Atleast I'm drinking a soda right now and about to order some pizza hut. Hehe. (:

So snow storm friday. 7 inches! Sweet. Even tho it's on break. Boo. Don't hit us tomorrow night. I want my shopping trip.

Laptop!

I finally got it!!
I knew I'd get it. I just didn't know when. We've always wanted one but never really looked around or worried about getting one because we had two desktops that worked perfectly fine. Worked is the keyword here people. Haha.
My cd-dvr drive thingy went out Tuesday night, or something like that. I was pissed needless to say. Nothing was fixing it. We contacted tech support and nothing. They were total assholes.
I had already told my mom I wanted a laptop and she said okay.
After waiting the whole week to get one, we went tonight.
I love it!!! This one is sooo easy to get used to. We got Vista Premuim. In my eyes, Windows is easier to opperate than Mac. Plus we can get a tv tuner for this puppy and record live tv on it with it's HD screen. I'm in love!
I'm in the process of moving all my pictures, music & everything else over here right now but I'm keeping them on my desktop also since I have to share this with my mom, supposely but I don't know how that will go. I'll probably win the battle since I need it more than my mom with school work and crap.
Later! (:

New blog.

I moved over here because WordPress was getting pretty boring. I barely posted on there.
Anyways, I'll post later. I'm to lazy to right now. Hehe.